Is that I HATE making mistakes. Because when I fuck it’s always a big one that always makes things worse. I know that’s natural when a mistake is made but this last hour alone I’ve made 5 consecutive fucks up and it just makes me want to cry in a corner... Fuck.

Woke up at 3am with a raging nosebleed that lasted for half an hour, kids woke up at 7 screaming the place down. Feeling groggy. An order I made has gone through a mix up and now I'm on my way to work doing 1pm - Midnight. Yay...

Screaming children? Check.

Body pains? Check

Arguing with the other half? Check

Gets placed with the blame and made to out to be the bad guy? Check

All before another 12 hour shift? Check

Well, at least I got started on Rebel 4 of my Ragna story. So, that’s something.

Hope you all have a good day.

Over the last three weeks alone; I’ve been let down, lied to and undermined.

It all came to ahead today when it came to light today that three people who left work, one ago found another job, one who took sick leave and another who went back to their home country, all three who took off without a care, were seen in town being all chummy. All I can do now is rely on myself more than before.

Both of these feelings and thoughts are kind of mixed into one this time. Here’s the short of it;
- I speak of the man child I work with again
- He and our friend, who I consider a damn good mate and also my right hand man when it comes to our position as porters, I’m a head porter and he’s porter/temp chef, were chatting.
- I don’t like to play favourites; anyone can be friends with whoever they like, even if it’s someone I personally don’t have a high opinion as a person.

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To repeat what I said to my friend MetalMax;

I’m pissed off right now. I’ve had to come into work after flaming 14 hour shift and I haven’t had breakfast yet. It’s meant to be my bloody day off today for fucks sake! I’ve been working nonstop since last Tuesday, all those posts I’ve put I’ve had to do at work or when I get home at 1 in the morning!

Just when I’ve been waiting for these three days off this happens. Fucking hell... Back in this shithole for 9th day in a row.

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